memories

friday 3/6/05
"A memory is something we have. it can never be taken from us, it can be more precious than the present"

someone taught me the meaning of these sentences. it took me quite a while to realize what was meant by it. well basicly it just simply mean "you don't know what you have till it's gone." human beings... well most of us don't appreciate what in front of us. we tend to forget the value of the things we have, the person we're with and others. i am much wiser now, i try my very best to be thankful for what i am, what i have, where i am, the condition i'm in and the friends i have. not everybody realize this. as i went thru my memories... i realized i had a lot of good times and the same as much as bad times. at those specific moments i didn't realized that was the best times i had... i never regret. what's done is done... it's totally wasteful to regret things in the past; things i "should" have, memories i "should " experience... i'll live by the day. try to smell the roses every single day. i'm thankful that i breathe (and puff my red marlboro) every single morning with all of my body parts functioning well... i should feel great about myself... but i'm not.. somehow rather our past memories keeps on haunting us from the inside out. the thing with memories are... they tends to kill our living spirit as soon as we have the courage to live again. in the end if we look at it in a positive way... we'll get thru another day... i'll survive today...