Nothing Much...

As for last weekend, nothing much achieved. nothing much were done. i feel like i need to get myself sometime off... spent most of the weekend sleeping and resting... i missed being a couch potato... well in my case... carpet potato... i missed laying in front of the TV and flip thru the channels... and watch movies, not going to the cinema.... just watch a good movie.... we're so lucky that we have less than 100 tv channels (in K.L of course). and internet TV isn't counted for... Other countries... where they have more than 100 TV channels would produce a lot more couch potatoes... well at least we're fortunate enough. it made me realize that TV plays important role in our community. duuhhh... but then again... it's all up to us to control ourselves... watching TV... there's a lot of good shows nowadays compared to the times when i was growing up... those days... there were only 2 - 3 channels... but still... we would be running our way back to our home just to watch afternoon Cartoons then.... those were the days when the most of the entertainments evolves around books and creativity... games were created with whatever resources available... nowadays... there's Xbox, Nintendo, Sega, Sony etc... there's a phase when i want to try these games... i was so crazy about it... spent most of my days in front of the PC / Console.... it last a few months after that... i'm lucky and thankful that i was brought up in such a way that i learn to appreciate things as it is and human as who they as who they were... i'm thankful that i was brought up with a good sense of humanity... thanks mom + dad... at least now... when i turn back and look at my childhood... i realized i didn't miss a lot of it... it was a good and bad memories that i will treasure for the rest of my lives... these were the things that made me who i am today... a better human....
 

Be yourself.

A concept� not everybody could grasp the idea of being themselves� every single day we�re fed with all the icons� artistes� TV shows� even news� almost every single thing from the day we�re born� we�re expected to be someone else whom we�re not� I recall the time frame when I really wanted to be Spiderman, Superman, Plastic man, Batman, and those masked rider on a bike and they could just do everything and they have such powers to beam lasers to the villain etc� (Remember Saturday/Sunday morning cartoon�?) We�re always compared to perform like so and so� behave like so and so� be good like so and so� get good grades like so and so� well� we�re always compared� with ourselves or others� as I grew older� I was told to do this and that� those were the days when Astro wasn�t around� cinema was a rare occasion except for once a month or so� again I was fed with the entertainments icon such Johnny Depp(21 Jump Street), Knight rider, the A-Team, MacGyver, and a bunch more� At that age� we would be very very very confused to determine who would we be� then came the ages of comic books� man� the time when most of the kids our age could read and read comics� one thing about comics� it taught me to imagine stuff� create creativity� still there were comics idols and stuff� the other gender also have their times� when they were small� Barbie dolls and stuff� Play �masak-masak�� (well I happen to have a lil sis) in the end� we ask back the question of �WHO AM I?��.

Who are we�? How can we be ourselves when we don�t really know who we are? Are we the product of MOM and DAD? Are we the product of TV? Are we the product of Governments? Think about it for sometime�. And reckon that you are not alone� we could come out with a lot and bunch of hypotheses to back us up in answering who are we� in the end who else knows who we are �. Except for us� I know myself better than anybody knows about me� I can�t reject who I am� it�s me� if I reject myself� it�s like rejecting the existence of being me, the whole creation of me� then if I�m not me� who I am� definitely someone else� figure it out�.

Radix two a.k.a binary
 

Where does the last piece go?

Who I am?

I am who I am,
If I�m not who I am,
Then I must be someone else,
If I�m someone else,
I cannot be myself,
Only I know who I am
Anyone else don�t really know who I am
They could know a little bit
But not to the extend of how much I now myself,

If they know more about myself than I am,
Then they are not themselves,
If they are me and they are not themselves who are they?
If they are me then who am I?

Here�s the logic and the code (learnt it when I was small also� ha ha)
{
I = I
{
If I =! I; Then I = S; else I = S;
}
{
If I =! I;
{
Conditional :
{
I =! Me;
I + Me = I;
}

{
S + Me =! I;
S + Me < I + Me
}

If S + Me > I; Then S + Me =! Me;
If (S + Me = Me) && (S + Me =! S + Me);
{
S + Me = answer1
If S + Me = I;
I = answer2;
}

Print answer1;
Print answer2;

End
} 

it's been a very very long time since i wrote here. i've been quite bz lately... bz with life... bz with work... someone once said "get bz living, orget bz dying...". i'd rather choose the former.. after quite sometime... i found out that i'm actually need to let myself out... if not thru people, maybe thru this blog... since i don't expect anybody to read this... more like my personal diary/journal...

another job well done... another deal closed... now what...? report? post mortem? evaluation?... the process never ends... well coz life still goes on... and there's more to life than anything else... celebrate life... enjoy life... till you're taken by the angel of death...

me... i'll live another day... sometimes that's just not enough... at times i feel that i've found my soul mate... i thought i had... but the other party doesn't feel the same... i'm lost... lost in my own dominion... i'd asked only if... my soul mate... how i'm lost...

she's the morning light,
she's the shining star,
she understands...
she's the angel that i really wanna be with...

she's soft and delicate,
she's fragile and sweet,
she completes me,
she's the one that i wanna grow old with...

that's for now.. i can't get too specific... i'll jeopardize my situation now... the thing is... i feel comfortable with the person... i'd think that i'm in love... but...

things could get very complicated when u don't want them... well what the hell... guess i'll live with that...

until that time... i'll keep it to myself... forever... adieu....