past times... ?
saturday 4/6/05
"I am the pagan man. i speak for all my kind. when i state my opinion, my hollow piece of mind... you said that i'm an animal. well this at least is true. i'm a breathing thinking human being... what the hell are you...?"
the thought of my past clinging in my head whenever i'm all alone. i figured that wasn't the main issue... the main problem lies in the future. i always wanted to live my life to the full... i wanted to be everything i could, go everywhere i wish, do everything i'm capable of... my list of "to do" never ended... everytime i accomplish something, i always wanted to do more... the more i achieved, the more i realized... it's never enough... the more i get, the more i craved for some more... when will it end..?
The answer: "we can never get enough"... that's what makes us human... i remember the verse "I can't get no.. satisfaction.." by.. i guess a quarter of the worlds' population know who.. well that's part of the traits of being "a breathing thinking human being"... on the outside.. i'm quite tough... nobody could hurt me physically... i'm not afraid of anybody... not even ghosts, spirits, or whatever people may call it. in short... i'm strong, not easily broken, tough, i could endure hardship, viscid and durable. with all the toughness, i'm also weak... deep down... layers after layers of me (sounds like onion *ha ha*)... i'm quite vulnerable... no one knows that part of me (i like to keep it that way)...
i'm an audio/sound guy... certain tunes could make me trembles... certain tunes could make me weak... make me soft... i've been figuring out all these years why some songs affect me so much, why certain movie (that i said to myself) - was good; affect me not visually but thru audio... the intonation, the soundtrack, the audio effect... i don't know why.. but it does...
some people could taste colors, feel visual, taste or fell smells... but me, i'm touched by sounds... i could really imagine and associate certain songs with events whether related to me or not, it's not a concern... i started to realize this when i was really really small... i guess it's a gift for me.. everytime i heard certain songs, it reminded me to certain events. i seriously don't know why, i can't help it... it just came... the image just appear in my mind... some of it doesn't make sense at all as some of the tunes we're played during the 40's, 50's, 60's and even 70's.... part of where i wasn't even born. probly it's related to my past life as a music enthusiast.
i truly don't have the answer for that. during my primary and secondary years i used to buy "cassettes" (going for extinction)... some of which i never heard before.. this's what i did...
1. as soon as i got back, i pick up my walkman (also going to extinct) and play the song.
2. just for the fun of it, go thru the covers, lyrics, who made the album, who wrote the songs, when was it produced etc... (details)
3. i start listening to each and every song and picked the ones i liked the most.
4. for the fun of it also, i put preferences to the songs for it will hit the chart... and guess what...? most of the songs i picked went thru the chart... it freaked me out after some time... later i quit buying albums and listening first hand...
here's some riddles for my self...
- circle of friends - what happen to jack and benny?
- tony rich project - nobody knows...
"I am the pagan man. i speak for all my kind. when i state my opinion, my hollow piece of mind... you said that i'm an animal. well this at least is true. i'm a breathing thinking human being... what the hell are you...?"
the thought of my past clinging in my head whenever i'm all alone. i figured that wasn't the main issue... the main problem lies in the future. i always wanted to live my life to the full... i wanted to be everything i could, go everywhere i wish, do everything i'm capable of... my list of "to do" never ended... everytime i accomplish something, i always wanted to do more... the more i achieved, the more i realized... it's never enough... the more i get, the more i craved for some more... when will it end..?
The answer: "we can never get enough"... that's what makes us human... i remember the verse "I can't get no.. satisfaction.." by.. i guess a quarter of the worlds' population know who.. well that's part of the traits of being "a breathing thinking human being"... on the outside.. i'm quite tough... nobody could hurt me physically... i'm not afraid of anybody... not even ghosts, spirits, or whatever people may call it. in short... i'm strong, not easily broken, tough, i could endure hardship, viscid and durable. with all the toughness, i'm also weak... deep down... layers after layers of me (sounds like onion *ha ha*)... i'm quite vulnerable... no one knows that part of me (i like to keep it that way)...
i'm an audio/sound guy... certain tunes could make me trembles... certain tunes could make me weak... make me soft... i've been figuring out all these years why some songs affect me so much, why certain movie (that i said to myself) - was good; affect me not visually but thru audio... the intonation, the soundtrack, the audio effect... i don't know why.. but it does...
some people could taste colors, feel visual, taste or fell smells... but me, i'm touched by sounds... i could really imagine and associate certain songs with events whether related to me or not, it's not a concern... i started to realize this when i was really really small... i guess it's a gift for me.. everytime i heard certain songs, it reminded me to certain events. i seriously don't know why, i can't help it... it just came... the image just appear in my mind... some of it doesn't make sense at all as some of the tunes we're played during the 40's, 50's, 60's and even 70's.... part of where i wasn't even born. probly it's related to my past life as a music enthusiast.
i truly don't have the answer for that. during my primary and secondary years i used to buy "cassettes" (going for extinction)... some of which i never heard before.. this's what i did...
1. as soon as i got back, i pick up my walkman (also going to extinct) and play the song.
2. just for the fun of it, go thru the covers, lyrics, who made the album, who wrote the songs, when was it produced etc... (details)
3. i start listening to each and every song and picked the ones i liked the most.
4. for the fun of it also, i put preferences to the songs for it will hit the chart... and guess what...? most of the songs i picked went thru the chart... it freaked me out after some time... later i quit buying albums and listening first hand...
here's some riddles for my self...
- circle of friends - what happen to jack and benny?
- tony rich project - nobody knows...
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